MaKayla, Part 1 (2018)

Dear MaKayla,


Ok, so here’s the thing. As I’m sure you know by now, I’m into you. It couldn’t be more painfully obvious at the point. I mean, I’ve simply missed the sound of your beautiful voice these past few days. But rightfully so.

I didn’t even know what I wanted until I met you. Then I realized you’re everything I’m looking for and more. You’re a phenomenal gamer with a calm demeanor, a sweet person who speaks words of kindness, and a woman of incredible humility (considering her extraordinary beauty).

Now, I realize I live, as you said, “like 800 miles away.” So maybe I sound crazy. Maybe I am crazy... But can you really blame a guy for falling for someone like you? You’re simply a joy to be around.

However, I know I’ve probably made mistakes. I probably came off too strong. I tend to fall hard when I do, and I admit that’s a fault of mine. But that doesn’t change the fact I can’t know for sure what you’re thinking. If I’m bothering you, upsetting you, or making you uncomfortable in any way, please tell me. That’s the last thing I want to do. What I want most is for you to be happy. So, if I’m not doing that for you, I’ll slow down, I’ll back off, I’ll stop being flirty, I’ll leave you alone completely, whatever you want.

Also, OffsetSavage says he wants to fight me. Now I don’t know for certain why, but I can take some guesses. However, I’ll refrain from making any assumptions until I hear what you know about it, because that just wouldn’t be fair to you.

So, basically what I’m trying to say is I’m confused. Whether or not it’s your intention, I feel like I’m receiving mixed signals. Sometimes I feel like you’re interested in me too and sometimes I feel like you’re just trying to avoid me. And the only way for me to know the truth is for you to tell me.

And I’ve been through a lot of crap in my life: I’ve had my heart broken, I’ve been lied to repeatedly, I’ve had messy breakups, I’ve been stabbed in the back. So I don’t want to waste any more time with games, especially mind games. I just wanna know what’s on your mind.

So, even though I hate to do this, I’m giving you an ultimatum. If you just see me as some irritating thorn in your side, tell me now and I’ll stop snap chatting you, stop messaging you, and be on my way. On the other hand, if you even slightly feel the way that I do about you, want to continue vibing like we did when we first met, and want to develop a friendship/relationship getting to know each other, then text or call my phone number (***-***-****).

If I don’t receive something  in three days from now (by 11:59 PM on the 13th), I’ll assume you want nothing to do with me and I’ll leave you alone. If I do receive something by then, I look forward to playing more Fortnite and Rainbow Six Siege with you, starting a snap streak with you, and seeing what else the future holds. Remember, I’m not trying to pressure you either way. The choice is 100% yours. I know this is probably a lot to process, so take your time.

Now, I want you to understand I value and appreciate you for exactly who you are. I wouldn’t change a thing about you, especially not your “fat rolls” (a.k.a. curves). That’s why I’m not gonna give up on what I see as a one-of-a-kind opportunity that easily. Only a fool would do such a thing.

But, like I said, I don’t want to hurt you. So, if I’m a pain in the ass to you, I’ll stay out of your way. And trust me, I’ll eventually get over it if that’s the case. I’ve been rejected many times before. It wouldn’t be anything new to me. I just need to know. Because I’m not gonna lie; you’ve been on my mind a lot the past few days. And, I don’t know, maybe you think that makes me creepy or something. But honestly, I’m just an ordinary guy with a big heart, desperate to make a real connection with a genuine girl like you.

And one more thing, as for those pictures I sent you, I might appear to come off as confident about my body. But, if you care to know, the truth about me (and I don’t ever tell anyone this), the reason I work out for hours a day every day and try to look ripped 24/7 is because I’ve got serious body image issues (just like everyone else), probably more than the average person. Even though I look very muscular, I don’t feel it. To be honest, I’m just a softie, emotionally broken on the inside. I use my body as a front to try to hide all the pain I’ve endured over the years. I really just sent you those pics of me because I’m insecure and I wanted to impress you. So, if I freaked you out, I truly do apologize.

Anyway, with that said, whatever you decide, I will hold no regrets because I know I tried my best. I will simply hope that whatever lucky guy sweeps you off your feet treats you right, I’ll pray for your happiness as you continue to grow and mature, and I won’t ever forget you. And, unless I find someone as perfect as you are for me (which is unlikely), my door will always be open to you, if you ever decide to reopen it.

Remember how beautiful you are, inside and out, Blitz


❤️ Stephen, your one and only sparkle buddy