Grounded

Based on my personal experiences, I've determined that viewing pornographic material does not and will never elicit the same gratifying response physically bonding with a partner in person does. After spending many years alone and yearning for sexual intimacy with a woman again, I still don't feel the urge to masturbate. And every time I've succumbed to the temptation of watching pornography, in the hope of feeling less alone and satisfying carnal desires, the ensuing elated psychological state is so fleeting. And the lonely reality of the situation always invades and occupies my mind. Regardless, I'd rather spend another decade in virtual isolation than spend a minute entertaining some unhealthy fantasy. Chronic isolation has certainly taken its toll on my mental health; nevertheless, chronic masturbation would only damage it further. I will do everything in my power to suppress my innate attraction to pornography while I wait indefinitely for my next romantic partner. I do this not only to behave in accordance with my moral conscience; I also do it because it's the correct choice to keep my thoughts grounded in reality and to protect my long-term health.