Burnout (Dwindling Flame)
Every woman for which I've ever had romantic feelings has at some point rejected, misjudged, belittled, ignored, ridiculed, defamed, betrayed, deceived, ghosted, mistreated, alienated, abandoned, blocked, or forgotten about me.
Nowadays this prolonged pattern often feels inevitable and everlasting. Hence why I've made hardly any attempts to romantically/sexually pursue/date girls/women since the age of 14 (I'll turn 28 next month) and why I've been without a girlfriend for nearly five years.
My chronic state of solitude does not originate from an absence of desire for a partner; it is derived from a reasonable lack of motivation combined with overwhelming feelings of despair. Every day, week, month, and year I spend alone gradually erodes my confidence in and dream of one day becoming a loving husband and father. As time continues to pass, I'm reminded of and concerned by my increasing age and my definite mortality.
Nowadays this prolonged pattern often feels inevitable and everlasting. Hence why I've made hardly any attempts to romantically/sexually pursue/date girls/women since the age of 14 (I'll turn 28 next month) and why I've been without a girlfriend for nearly five years.
My chronic state of solitude does not originate from an absence of desire for a partner; it is derived from a reasonable lack of motivation combined with overwhelming feelings of despair. Every day, week, month, and year I spend alone gradually erodes my confidence in and dream of one day becoming a loving husband and father. As time continues to pass, I'm reminded of and concerned by my increasing age and my definite mortality.
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