Intrusive Thoughts

A List of Recent, Intrusive Thoughts

• It's impossible for me to compare with a tall, handsome, wealthy, successful man like him.
• My overwhelming desire for romance/intimacy feels hopeless.
• Anyone I'd be interested in dating and would reciprocate my attraction is already in a relationship.
• I feel like an inferior, secondary option for her.
• She'll never truly like me the way I like her; she'll only ever like the idea of me.
• Everyone, including her, probably thinks she's out of my league. And maybe they're right.
• As someone with no social life who lives 2,000 miles away, I feel like a dump for her trauma.
• I'm just permanently trapping myself in the "friend zone."
• The dynamics of our relationship are awfully depressing.
• Maybe she only keeps me around her because I give her so much positive attention.
• Does she care about me or does she just talk with me because I make her feel good?
• As I read her blog posts, I can't help but think I'm nothing but an afterthought.
• Sometimes I forget she has a boyfriend, and sometimes I wish she didn't have one.
• Does my presence offer her anything of value other than convenient, emotional support?
• Her bland and brief responses hurt me because they demonstrate an apparent lack of interest.
• Am I just waiting on her hand and foot? Am I just wasting my time?
• She probably just pities me because of my various failures.
• I am going to die alone, without ever experiencing the gratifying privileges which accompany being a husband or being a father.
• A part of my mind is always going to wonder; what if she and I were together?
• I'm merely a healthy distraction for her, and she's an unhealthy distraction for me.
• Does she call me because she's bored or because she actually wants to talk to me?
• I'm not good for her because I want love from her, even though she doesn't owe me it.
• She's never going to trust me enough to meet me in real life.
• It feels like she's intentionally keeping me close enough that I continue to develop feelings, but she's also staying far enough that she can avoid ever developing feelings of her own.
• We could be such compatible partners, but I'll never get the chance to prove that.
• Hearing about her lover serves as a painful reminder that some lucky guy already occupies the position I can only dream of filling.
• She's not single, yet I want her to be with me. That makes me a wicked and selfish sinner, doesn't it?