The Day I Surrendered My Innocence

Tuesday Night, July 28th, 2020:

            [Redacted] and I both had very long days, and I was unfortunately busy for most of the day. As a result, I wasn’t available until around 10:00 PM EST. That’s when I came over to [redacted] house. Yesterday night [redacted] had asked me to sleep over there since her mother is away from town in Chicago for four days this week. She walked me upstairs and I gave her a quality back/neck/glute/hip massage, since she has been experiencing mild pain and discomfort recently. She remarked that she, thankfully, felt better after the massage. We decided to watch the third episode of the television series “You” on Netflix. Afterwards, we began making out a lot and getting really affectionate. I had also brought a box of [redacted] favorite condoms (Trojan Ecstasy Ultra Ribbed Lubricated Latex Condoms), just in case. [Redacted] proceeded to kiss my chest and ear, and bite my ear. I also did the same for her. I licked and sucked on her nipples and the surrounding area (areola), using my tongue to push points I knew would arouse her. I also did the same thing with my fingers. She returned the favor by giving me head again. I was pretty aroused, so [redacted] thought we should give vaginal sex a try. I agreed. But unfortunately I all but lost my erection by the time I reached for the box of condoms. So instead of having sex, [redacted] decided I could pleasure her vagina with my finger. It turned out she was actually really wet and seemed to enjoy it a lot. After we finished, we went downstairs to the bathroom to wash our hands and remove our contact lenses as we prepared to sleep. While [redacted] completed her skincare routine, I researched erectile dysfunction on my phone. When she returned, she turned off the lights. We cuddled for a while, with me being the ‘big spoon’ for the majority of the time. We also talked about why I might be experiencing some ED, primarily attributing it to my lack of experience and longtime drought when it comes to female sexual interaction. I felt a little guilty and didn’t want [redacted] to think I’m not attracted to her sexually. [Redacted] fell asleep before I did, as we were facing each other holding one another’s arms. I couldn’t fall asleep yet so I just watched her have her occasional hypnic jerks. I was very curious about what she could’ve been dreaming. I eventually fell asleep too. Nothing in my life ever felt more comfortable and natural than sleeping beside [redacted]. 

Wednesday, July 29th, 2020,

exactly one month after we matched on Tinder:

            I woke up several times in the middle of the night. This sometimes awoke [redacted] as well, who was quick to ask me if I was comfortable and hug me. I felt bad for waking up (and consequently waking her up after tossing and turning in my sleep). I assured her I was very comfortable, which was true. I felt extremely happy lying beside her and her mattress is way more comfortable on my back and neck than my own. After waking up intermittently, we both ended up waking up to my alarm at 6:30 AM (which I didn’t realize was still set). So all in all, I slept less than six hours. [Redacted] thought we should try to get some more sleep. [Redacted] ended up doing just that, but I unfortunately had trouble falling back asleep. After [redacted] slept a couple more hours and I thought about her, she woke up as I started to get fairly erect again. She thought it might be a good time to try to have vaginal sex again. So I removed my underwear. She grabbed hold of my cock and picked up one of the condoms as fast as she could as I removed her clothing. She then proceeded to use her hand to guide me as I inserted my penis into her vaginal opening. I was sitting on top of her as she was lying face up. After it was in there, I continued to push in and pull out in an attempt to please her. More and more I began to realize that her receiving pleasure from me turned me on a LOT. The more I heard her moan, saw her sweat, and heard her exclaim “Oh, my god. That feels so good,” the harder I got. [Redacted] quickly taught me to slide out more as I continued to push in and out of her. I tried to vary the pace and I used my right arm/shoulder to support myself on her bed frame as I continued to please her. At one point, I unfortunately became more flaccid because I heard a noise that sounded like someone was approaching the door to her bedroom. It turned out to just be one of [redacted] dogs, Finn, who had been relaxing in the room with us and watching out for [redacted] safety. Because of that we decided to stop for now. A little later [redacted] tried again, this time with her on top. But I just wasn’t quite hard enough at the time. After reflecting in her bed for a little and cuddling a bit, we got up and got dressed. [Redacted] freshened up in her bathroom and we went downstairs to talk about potential plans for the day. I used the massage chair in her living room. [Redacted] said that she wanted me to drive her to get her coffee. I gladly obliged. I drove us to Dunkin Donuts and got a sandwich for myself, a coffee for her, and a box of a dozen donuts for my brothers. She seemed to have a lot of fun energy that morning. I dropped her off at her house and drove home. She had mentioned that I could accompany her and her dogs at Camp Creek later, but I told her I may or may not be busy. She asked me late that afternoon if I wanted to join her there at about 5:45 PM. And unfortunately I was busy at the time, so I could not come. At about 9:30 PM when I was finally available, I asked her if she wanted me to visit and give her a massage. But she said she was too tired and planning to go to bed soon.