I Am

 I’m tired of pretending to be someone I am not through the use of social media.
I am a bodybuilder. I am a wannabe model. I am strong, at least physically. I am disciplined.
However, I am also distracted. I am also struggling to find motivation. I am also constantly lonely. I am also feeling worthless for the 22 hours of the day I am not spending sculpting my physique. I am also unhappy. I am also contemplating suicide from time to time.